This is terrifying.
Exposing myself. Being vulnerable. Writing a blog.
Those who know me know I’m quite reserved – especially when it comes to social media. I rarely post on Facebook. I have an Instagram, but only because we let my daughter have an account, and mine is to keep tabs on hers. (I’ve never posted there either).
And I certainly don’t twitter.
Against my usual judgment I’m going to put myself out there along with the triumphs and tribulations that accompany being a dad of two pre-teen daughters. Writing about what I enjoy and the things that help my family and me get through day-to-day life.
So what’s so terrifying about that – The fear of rejection? The fear of being criticized for my thoughts and aspirations?
Now listen, I have one job as a dad – raise my daughters to be the most well-rounded, kind-hearted, and successful women they can be. And a lot of other little things along the way. Parents know that’s so much easier said than done though. From the moment they walk down the stairs in the morning to tucking them in at night. Every action we take is being analyzed and deciphered in their spongy little brains.
I’ve taken a lot of time to reflect on this topic and I’ve come to realize that it starts with me.
After being a dad for almost 12 years now, and a brand new husband, I want to hold myself accountable and strive to be better. I want to be the best damn dad & husband I can be. I know, I know – how cliché of me. It’s human nature though. And apparently most millennial parents like myself share my sentiment. Athletes strive to be stronger and faster. Dentists want recognition and more patients. Engineers want to design better and more efficient machines. The point is – everyone wants to be the best of their craft, and parenting is part of mine. So if I can’t change the person I am for the better and push myself out of my own comfort zones, how the hell am I going to help my girls do the same thing?
Almost 13 years ago – in hindsight I have no idea why – I was compelled to put a single quote in the About You section of my Facebook profile:
“Always do what you are afraid to do.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Call it ironic…foreshadowing…. or just a stupid coincidence. Whatever it is – that’s what I’m doing.